Calm Thursday, Nov 19 2009

It has finally all gone calm once again.

Hectic time  that started last week straight through the weekend into this week is finally over

But it has had a great ending. (hopefully)

Everything seems aligned and perfect at this particular moment. (7.59pm)

And I just want to capture the moment and keep it forever.

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Quits Monday, Nov 16 2009

As usual.

I made my choice.

Communicated it.

Done deal.

But it does not feel that good.

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Brace myself Wednesday, Nov 11 2009

Tough week ahead,

I need to brace myself

I need to put a cap/limit on employment

Self employment is a goal of mine. The freedom not to answer to anyone. I thank God  (& surprise myself that I have managed to be grateful given the mood of the day ) that my present position is semi-autonomous and that gives me a great feel/taste of what working for self will be.

What I have learnt that can be useful in self employment;

1. Business end of the deals; how to win the job, (not easy – I have a whole lot of new respect for my bosses )
2. How to run a company – administrative nitty gritty, management and accounting

The challenge for self employment;

1. Impatience with God’s people – if it was up to me thunder and brimstone would be raining on people daily – I have very little patience/belief that people are acting in good faith. In business you can’t exactly let people know what you think of them can you? Patience, belief, positivity with people even when they are completely taking advantage of you – that is a bitter pill which I do not know if I can swallow easily.
2. Public Relations –  I do not live my life as a PR exercise. I do not buy things I cannot afford. I do not have club membership to rub shoulders with who is who in order to hope for a job. (Tiring if you ask me) – If I ever get club membership it is because I want to, my interests will dictate who I meet. Of all the things that have to do with PR the only thing I have decided needs a change is my wardrobe. (and hair )

 

 

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Decisions & Sensitivity Tuesday, Nov 10 2009

I make my decisions.

I second guess how I reached at the decisions.

I second guess the way forward after the decisions.

I try to temper down the effect on others.

I even postpone implementation to accommodate sensitivities.

I never change the decision.

I make decisions contrary to the first.

These are always new decisions.

So if I make a decision.

Let it be.

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Today Tuesday, Nov 3 2009

Today the goal apart from be less cranky and not use four letter words is to do all things that I need to do in half the time – including ‘wasting time on the internet’

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TGIF Friday, Oct 30 2009

I look forward to fridays for many things:

1. End of the week
2. Light workload
3. I get to wear jeans
4. Eating out etc etc

So today I wake up with a nice blue pair of jeans in mind only to be notified of very important meeting in a few hours. I think I have ranted about scheduling of meetings abruptly so I will spare you a rant. Anyway I was upset at the scheduling and had to look for a suit to wear, call my boss for briefing etc etc. Unhinged my morning a bit.

Meeting went successful and I got great news from a dear girlfriend. Women handling their business. Nothing better. I am so very proud of her!

Dropped the ball on some admin stuff but whatever.

Time to go – TGIF –  ni kujiachilia tu (loosely translated “letting go”)

Bon weekend a tous!

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Dating and me Monday, Oct 26 2009

* Drafted this on 19th – Been debating for a week whether to post it. TMI?

This is one of my ‘weakest’ points if I consider my history.

I do not commit easily.

When I do I get bored easily.

I get out rather quickly.

I am yet to have a relationship that lasted more than 4 months.

(and 2 of the 4 months were spent debating whether to stay or leave )

and I have had 2 such ‘relationships’ ever. Only 2.

AND I am in my mid-thirties.

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Un-hinged (part 2) Monday, Oct 26 2009

It is just the feeling I have today.

I have a new friendship that has no clear boundary definations and it is kind of making me feel quite un-hinged.

Two options;

1. Define it and put boundaries up – my ‘choleric’ self wants this.  - safer and uncomplicated
2. Leave it undefined and let it have a life of its own – my ’sanguine’ self wants this  -  but there might not be any friendship to salvage after things run their own course.

What to do? What to do?

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Blog block = Good stuff going on Friday, Oct 16 2009

If you come by here and there are no updates for a long while just know too many good things are going on. I go quiet when good stuff is going on and I just enjoy it.

I blog to sort out the ‘confused’ days – so when I do not blog just know I am cruising on a great wave and great things are happening.

But today being TGIF and such a grateful day I will so list all the good stuff.

1. Got in for my Masters programme!……Yay!
2. Celebrated my sibling’s graduation!…Yay for her! – It was an awesome celebration of a lot of hardwork and yes a great grade to show for it. So again…Yay!
3. Got my papers organized for travel…Yay! When you hold a non-western passport the process is always draining! Regulations are getting tougher (not to mention a few denials in the past is not an added advantage ) ………so Yay! for a hurdle crossed.
4. Got a new friend to hang out with (and hopefully a few new adventures)….Yay!
5. Got tenant out….Yay! It was getting to be too many mentally draining phonecalls. Getting someone to manage the house for me.
6. Mortgage on track…Yay! I have been overpaying on this so my monthly repayments have gone down. I am also being able to fit paying the mortgage and financing a Masters…..Yay for ‘organized me’
7. Got new interesting horizons at work and the year is looking to end with a bang….so Yay!

Thank you God for all the good stuff and for all the chips falling in my favour.

Thank you Ms Kellie, Ms Kaasa and Ms Mrembo for all the good wishes and encouragement. Be very blessed

Disclaimer

* Yay! as used in this context is an expression of joy not any other usage

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Blog update Tuesday, Oct 13 2009

Too much has been going on and I do not even have the time to organise my thoughts to blog about it but all is well and moving on, moving on. I will update my resolutions – might be the fastest way to do an update

Something funny happened. I needed some information and with an ASAP (yes I am that kind of last minute annoying colleague). As usual I wanted to ask for it tomorrow morning and get it by afternoon. Heh heh heh  ( I need to yank this ‘last-minute’ disease out of me .)

Anyway as I brace to send a late night e-mail asking for the information I realise I already asked for the information and got it two weeks ago! Now when I can’t remember things that I do on time and almost end up re-doing them then it means I have a deeply entrenched habit that I need to kick (and fast)

Have an ‘on-time’ / ‘before time’ week!

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